Untitled.
I close the door,
to never be opened again.
Unless for you to come,
for that only I will welcome.
asyrafbadhrul
IIUM Gombak
11:32 P.M, 21 February 2012
Asyraf Badhrul: A Character Review
Salam
At last, a new post. I seriously have a lot in mind, but too little time in hand. So instead of spending hours in front of my lappy finding the right words to write a new post, why not grab something that I myself had written in class? So yeah, this is the essay that I wrote for my drama class and I would like to share it with you. Hope you enjoy it 
Asyraf Badhrul : A Character Review
Problematic, that’s why they called me. All the teachers in my primary school used to complain about me to my parents. Lazy, always daydreaming in class, never finishing homework and stuff like that. Despite of all that, I didn’t give a damn. I didn’t care at all. I always thought that success will always follow me. It did, I was the only student to score 5 A’s UPSR at my school. I felt good about myself, and pretty confident that I will succeed in whatever I do. Of course, I was wrong.
In my teenage years, I was the ace in my class. I was the class representative, a prefect the next year, and always got the attention from my teachers. It gave me pride and confidence. It wasn’t until Form Three that I realised I am not as good as people say. I got 7A’s in my PMR, the worst record in my family. All my elder siblings got either 9A’s or 8A’s at the least. I even got C for Arabic. I panicked a little, but I assured myself that that was it. It’s just my luck, next time it will be better. I kept my faith that I am still the best and the results will take care of itself, regardless of my attitude and behaviour. I thought that my SPM would be a hit, yes it did actually, but in a different way. It’s not that I beat my 11A1’s sister’s record, I got the worst result in my family, again. With only 4A’s and B, C, and D, I cried like a child back then. I was frustated, devastated, and disgusted with myself. When I thought it was the end for me, it got worse. My applications to higher education institutions were all turned down. I didn’t receive any offer letter. Then only I realised that success is not something humans were born with. It is something we must sought after. Even if my dad is a Professor, my elder siblings got excellent grades and scores, all that got nothing to do with me if I want to succeed. I have to search and earn it myself . Thus, began my seven months of ‘soul searching’.
I made a drastic change, I chose to go to Ipoh, Perak to stay at a place where they offer STAM (Sijil Tinggi Agama Malaysia). Not for the sake of pursuing my study there, but to ‘revive’ myself with pious environment. It was then I started to realise what is the true aim of living, what I should do and how I should live my life. The ‘soul searching’ was a success. From a problematic, don’t-care-about-anything person, I’ve changed into a person who will really chase my dream and prove to myself and everyone else that I too can achieve something meaningful in life. That is why currently, I am studying in my favourite course, despite of all the challenges and negative perceptions. Simply because I believe, nothing can guarantee success but yourself.
For seventeen years, I was a static person. Then maybe I’ve changed at a point in my life and became a dynamic character. My SPM results really changed the way I am and made me more aware of the situation and reality.
We are marionettes
Salam
In The Name of Allah Most Gracious Most Merciful
As a BEN student (cewah) I should write my post in English aite? But then frankly, I am not that good. My aim of blogging is not to show-off but just to point out my humble opinion and make people realize the current situation of the world and what is happening around them (and me 
) . Since most of the readers are Malay (well.I assumes it that way) I will continue my post in Malay and a bit in English. So then it would be more understandable. Okay? Good
Yesterday, I went to MABIT (Malam Bina Amal & Taqwa) at Surau Desa Anggerik, Nilai. With me are a few students from USIM and some other khwah PEMBINA Nilai. The first slot is by the President of PEMBINA Negeri Sembilan, akh Yassir. Kitorang ‘bedah’ buku Muntolaaq@Langkah Bermula karangan Muhammad Ahmad Ar-Rasyid, seorang ikhwah dari Iraq kalau tak silap. Beliau berpengalaman luas dalam bidang tarbiyah dan da’wah. Maka amat tepatlah buku beliau dijadikan rujukan. Sub-topic chosen is emm..what was it again? I can’t remember :/ Dush! My memory is BAD!
Anyway, the main point or at least you can say what I got from the discussion is that actually, the world which we are living in a world full of lies and complots and hidden agendas. Look around. Compare it with history. What have we become? What have we turned into? Not more than just mere MARIONETTES. Why? According to Oxford Advanced Dictionary 8th Edition, a marionette is a puppet whose arms, legs, and head are moved by strings. So the basic idea is that every marionette has a puppeteer and for this case, our puppeteer is not else but the Zionists.
Why I said Zionists? because the very reason why the world is in chaos right now, why the world is not as harmony as it used to be when its under the Islam Empire, why the world is full of negativity is that these were all planned carefully by the Zionists since long ago. We are nothing but a character in a play that the script was wrote by the La’natullah. Kenapa? Tengoklah, budaya hedonism, liberalism, idealogi kapitalis, hukum riba’, semuanya berasal dari dimanipulasi oleh Zionis ni. Diorang dah rancang semua ni dari dulu lagi. Bagaimana nak jatuhkan Islam dan menguasai dunia. Boleh rujuk buku The International Jew by Henry Ford untuk tau lebih lanjut pasal perancangan diorang.
Their plan
Henry Ford, pengasas brand kereta Ford dari US sangat faham dengan perangai Yahudi ni. Siapa yang belajar sejarah, akan tau bahwa suatu ketika dulu, US tenggelam dalam masalah ekonomi yang teruk. Harga saham jatuh merudum. Dan ketika itu, ada pihak yang mengambil kesempatan dengan membeli semua saham-saham tersebut dan sekarang, mereka memperoleh keuntungan yang berbilion-bilion. Siapakah mereka? Itulah Zionis. Kenapa zionis boleh beli saham2 tu sedangkan ekonomi teruk? Sebab mereka yang menguasai bank-bank utama di dunia especially America. Sistem riba’ diperkenalkan kepada non-Jew, maka berlipat gandalah keuntungan.
Bila untung, diorang beli saham, diorang dapat KUASA. Bukan kuasa dari segi politik je, tapi juga dari segi meguasai minda-minda orang lain. Sebab ni adalah cara yang paling halus untuk menguasai sesuatu kaum tu. Firaun dulu, dapat jadikan Bani Israil sebagai hamba adalah denga melalaikan diorang. Mereka berpecah-belah, and firaun pun amik kesempatan. Same goes for the jews, diorang beli saham makanan2,media massa,buat syarikat senjata2,jana Israel dan seterusnya meletakkan doktrin2 yang tak sihat dalam semua perkara ni especially media supaya minda pemuda dan umat sekalian secara amnya lalai dan leka seterusnya menjadikan kita semua sebagai boneka Yahudi.
Tengoklah,konsert merata-rata. Hiburan dijadikan raja. Budaya hedonism meluas bagai nak rak. kat Malaysia je dah berapa kali konsert setahun. MTV World Stage, Paramore, Adam Lambert, etc etc. ni semua demi melalaikan belia-belia Islam kat Malaysia ni.
Dari segi ekonomi, sebagai students,mungkin kita tak peka terhadap benda ni. Fikirkan apa yang aku akan cakap.
Sedar atau tak, ekonomi di Malaysia adalah hasil daripada perancangan musuh2 Allah. Contoh? okay,standard gaji pekerja kilang/KFC/mana-mana kedai/syarikat (yang kira tahap low class) hanya RM 3.50-RM 5.00 sejam. Ni yang low class la. Sehari kerja ada yang sampai 8-10 jam. Katala RM 4 x 10 = RM 40 sehari. Seminggu kalau kerja 6 hari, dapatla RM 240. Satu bulan, RM 960. betul tak? Ini average gaji pekerja kilang. Bayangkan, RM 960 nak beli apa je? So orang akan berusaha dengan lebih kuat lagi, kerja OT, amik part-time, rajinkan diri. Bagus tak? Memang secara zahirnya bagusla. Tapi fikir balik, bila masa dia akan peruntukkan untuk family? Bila masa dia nak peruntukkan untuk fikir pasal Da’wah? Masalah Umat?
All he can think of is how to survive, how to get a place to live, eat, find money and money and money. Ever think about akhirat? Selamtkan generasi muda? Bangunkan Islam? Ada masa ke? Takde.. kalu yang kaya pulak, sibuk fikir mcm mane nak pelihara kekayaan. Memang ada yang miskin/biasa/kaya yang fikir mcm mane nak selamatkan ummah tapi berapa kerat sangat? Lagi2 dlm Malaysia ni. Last2,sampai mati keje carik duit,carik dunia. Da’wah tarbiyah tak jalan. ummat pon terus tenggelam. yahudi dan musuh2 Allah makin berkuasa. So siapa yang nak bangunkan Islam?
Contoh kat Arab, buat perancangan ngan US sebab takut kedudukan raja kena guling. So jual minyak kat US, beli persiapan tentera dari US. Tak ke BODOH tu? Tak ke PUPPET namenye? Yang kita ni pulak, lagi buat dunno tak ambik kisah. yang penting cmne nk carik duit, cmne nak hidop.
The Solution
Ikut balik Qur’an and Sunnah. Maybe korang dah jemu dengar benda ni, but this is it. inilah dia yang akan menyelamatkan manusia. Nabi pun sabda
“Sesiapa yang mengikut kedua ini,tidak kan sesat selamanya : Al-Qur’an dan Sunnah”
Nampak tak? Solusi dia, keluar lah dari kelalaian tu. jangan ikut agenda diorang. Ikut agenda kita sendiri. Agenda umat islam, kembalikan balik sahsiah dan akhlaq seorang muslim yang sejati dalam diri. Camne? Dengan fahami dan selami apa tuntutan agama dan mempraktikknnya. jangan jadikan diri kita boneka mereka. jangan ikut aturan2, rancangan2 mereka. Sebaliknya, kita yang merancang dan yang penting melaksanakannya sekali.
“Failure to plan is like planning to fail”
Nampak? Faham kenapa kita kena ikut balik ajaran agama? Or kau nak terus jadi puppet diorang? Aku taknak.
Aku tau aku pon masih seorang puppet,aku kekadang teralpa dan leka jua. So jom kita sama sama tanamkan azam untuk berubah.
Aku nak jadi seorang muslim sebenar, dan sebab itu, aku mengajak kau sekali, agar kita sama2 kembalikan sinar Islam di muka bumi ni,
Ayuh bersamaku!
The End (part 1)
Thank You
Salam
In The Name of Allah Most Gracious Most Merciful
Hari terakhir for 2010. Esok da 2011.
2010 ni ramai sangat kawan yang aku berpisah/jumpa. Kawan sekolah,STAM,ASEAN Logics,and CFS IIUM. So sempena dengan tu, silalah enjoy lirik nasyid fevret aku. Aku sangat terhutang budi dengan kalian. Banyak nasihat,teguran,and macam2 lagilah korang sume da bagi kat aku. Selamat aku ucapkan kat korang sume, moga 2011 akan menjadi lebih baik untuk korang 
Sebuah Pertemuan
Ketika diri mencari sinar
Secebis cahaya menerangi laluan
Ada kalanya langkahku tersasar
Tersungkur di lembah kegelapan
Bagaikan terdengar bisikan rindu
Mengalun kalimah menyapa keinsafan
Kehadiranmu menyentuh kalbu
Menyalakan obor pengharapan
C/O 1:
Tika ku kealpaan
Kau bisikkan bicara keinsafan
Kau beri kekuatan, tika aku
Diuji dengan dugaan?
Saat ku kehilangan keyakinan
Kau nyalakan harapan
Saat ku meragukan keampunan Tuhan
Kau katakan rahmat-Nya mengatasi segala
(*) Menitis airmataku keharuan
Kepada sebuah pertemuan
Kehadiranmu mendamaikan
Hati yang dahulu keresahan
Cinta yang semakin kesamaran
Kau gilap cahaya kebahagiaan
Tulus keikhlasan menjadi ikatan
Dengan restu kasih-Mu, oh Tuhan
C/O 2:
Titisan air mata menyubur cinta
Dan rindu pun berbunga
Mekar tidak pernah layu
Damainya hati
Yang dulu resah keliru
Cintaku takkan pudar diuji dugaan
Mengharum dalam harapan
Moga kan kesampaian kepada Tuhan
Lantaran diri hamba kerdil dan hina
Ulang (*)
Syukur sungguh di hati ini
Dikurniakan teman sejati
Menunjuk jalan dekati-Nya
Tika diri dalam kebuntuan
Betapa aku menghargai
Kejujuran yang kau beri
Mengajarku mengenal erti
Cinta hakiki yang abadi
Tiada yang menjadi impian
Selain rahmat kasih-Mu Tuhan
Yang terbias pada ketulusan
Sekeping hati seorang insan
Bernama teman
The End
Birthday aku haritu. Bukan hari ni
Salam
In The Name of Allah Most Gracious Most Merciful
Alhamdulillah, aku dah besar sikit. Ei besar ni bukan besar gemok tau. Ni dari segi umur. Da tua dah. eh jap jap, muda lagi.
Sweet Seventeen~ 17
17 Disember 2010
its my birthday. hari jumaat. hari yang sangat best
kenapa best? heh. meh sini citer skit.
1. First time rasenye ramai kawan2 yang wish. Facebook memang xyah citer la, betapa ramai kanak2 menconteng dinding tuh kan. Tapi x kisah pon, best je rase. Harap2 makbul doa kalian. Siap ade yang call lagi semata2 nak wish. Alhamdulillah, bersyukur dapat kawan2 macam tu aku pun rasenye x call orang bile birthday dia kan. Ish ish. Muhasabah balik
2.Khutbah Jumaat. aku rasa ni paling best. first time aku tersenyum2 macam org gila dan menumpukan sepenuh perhatian kat khutbah tu,sbb tajuk nya ialah ‘MAHLIGAI BAHAGIA’
3.Makan free 
malam tu, dapat satu set burger prosperity McD. set LARGE. memang gemok giler la weh aku
dan ada lah lagi beberapa sebab kenapa best. malas pulak nak citer.
hah. sempena birthday ni,walaupun da lambat,tpaku nk jugak wish kat korang sume,thanks a lot.
and to my parents, Badhrulhisham bin Abd Aziz and Noorzaimen bt A. Kadir, thank you so much for these perfect 17 years of raising me. You’ve given me all i need. clothes,shelter,food,money,education,and more important, LOVE. i couldnt ask for more from you guys. You’re simply the best. Now i’m 17,well, not that big though but still i can live my life thanks to both of u. Ni ade satu lagu ciplak,kahs buatmu Mak , Abah I LOVE YOU
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
Thank you everybody. My birthday was AWESOME and its because of you guys love you all
later~
habis
I am a busy man.Not
Salam
In The Name of Allah Most Gracious Most Merciful
Greetings, people of the earth! Oh maybe some of you are not from the earth,hello anyway.Welcome to one of the most famous place in the earth,the internet.
It’s been a very long time since i wrote a new post. Well,i don’t have as much time as i did when i was a ‘non-university’ student.or people.whatever.
Since now i am officially a student of CFS IIUM Nilai, time seems like to fly away faster without giving me the chance to actually sit for hours writing a simple post. Just facebooking all the time. Huh.
So now,after about a month and a few days holding my very own Matric Card,i now have the chance to write nothing again. I am now sitting in a room somewhere in Pan Pacific Hotel KLIA with my parents. So boredom struck me seconds after i entered the room, and the only way to counter it is well,you know. Laptop. It’s my dad’s. I don’t really have one. Done facebooking, so now i’m back at here,whats this place called…..ermm..wordpress?yes.!wordpress! hah.
Am i a busy person? With only 15 contact hours per week,i am supposed to be not-busy. But with all the activities (nonsense + beneficial),it’s like i’m living with 50 contact hours per week.errrk.exaggerated .
well,i’m not really that busy. but wait. i am. huh. what is wrong with me.
whatever it is,i spent a lot of money here. by lot,i mean A LOT.a big fat LOT.
for foods.seriously.lots and lots and lots of money have gone because of FOODS. the thing that i LOVE to do here is eating. and i’ve gained kilos since. oh god.
and i spent hundreds for books.one of them is this;
this is what we call the effect of ‘peer pressure’
a friend of mine(well,not really friend.i met her on facebook.never in real life) posted something about Nicholas Sparks.then i found this book,and just bought it without thinking much. Heh. Mane la duit tak cepat habis.
And i have been to Mid valley,like, 3 times already. Bowling. Bowling,MPH. Bowling & Harry Potter 7 part 1.
OH GOD! speaking of harry potter! i cant help myself but thinking of Ginny Weasley and Hermione Granger and Luna Lovegood.
Please money,come to me,as I want to see them again T,T
suddenly i feel like ending my post here.
THE END.
bye people
oh oh btw,Goodbye is actually derived from the word ‘God Be With You’
Linguistics
Roti canai memang sedap,sebab..
Salam
In The Name of Allah Most Gracious Most Merciful
Had your breakfast yet? I did. Mushroom soup and bread.Alhamdulillah Thank You Allah
Korang selalu makan roti canai tak time breakfast? Sedap kan?
Nak tau kenapa sedap?Heheh.Ni lah rahsianya…
Last Usrah
In The Name of Allah Most Gracious Most Merciful
Yesterday,I had my last ‘usrah’ with my fellow friends and our beloved Ust Zolkifli Ismail. It was the last for me because insyaAllah I’ll continue my study at somewhere else. The meeting was short, not as usual as everybody have their own plans after that. Students have to prepare for the upcoming STAM Exam on 18th October, hope they will achieve the best in life and hereafter.Scratch that. Hope we all will.
Solah
After tilawah, Ust Zol gave us a bit lecture of what it takes to be a mu’min. It was based on the translations of Surah Al-Mu’minun. One of the things that I can remember is that, from what I understand is ‘Success comes with Khusyu’ in solah’
Prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h and his companions had achieved great success as they were implementing what was told to them. They perform their solah in full attention, whole-heartedly and without any hesitation. Unlike most people nowadays, even me , would take solah as a light thing. 5 minutes will do. 5 minutes without attention, 5 minutes with our mind wandering about something else, 5 minutes with the feeling of laziness and hesitation and yet we can spend 90 minutes in front of ESPN watching Chelsea vs Arsenal in full attention. See the picture? It’s not like you can not watch football at all, it’s just that if we can spend 90 minutes of quality time for football that has nothing o do with us, why not spend 5 minutes , just five minutes of quality time to pray to our God, The One who created us. Heck, why 5. 90 minutes of football, then 90 minutes of praying too. Hah. Can you do that?
Until we meet again
InsyaAllah after this I won’t be here at Ipoh anymore. Life goes on. Dah kene sambung study pulak. Bye bye Sg Rokam. Bye bye pakcik makcik imam kucing tikus dan segala jenis makhluk yang ade kat sini. Aku akan merindui kalian. Tok Zainal and Opah kat sebelah,and cucu die sekali. Oops. Nanti ade orang marah plak Lepas ni dah x duduk rumah sewa, dah macam duduk kat kampus, asrama punye lifestyle. Xdelah nak naik motor merempit laju-laju tengah malam ke, melantak burger Oblong double cheese tengah malam. Nak melalak tak tentu hala kat buaian depan rumah pun dah x dapat. Haih. Lepas ni kene study study dan study. Tapi xpe,itu semua aku redha. Boleh je carik hobi lain plak kat Nilai. Tapi nak cari kawan yang sama hebat macam kat Akademi Ikatan Muslimin? Itu yang aku ragu
Bukan senang nak jumpa kawan-kawan yang macam ni. Sekelompok pelajar seusia/tua sedikit yang punyai latar belakang dan faham akan proses Da’wah dan Tarbiyah. Yang berilmu dan beramal. Yang menasihati dan memberi. Yang memahami dan err,x reti nak bermadah pujangga di sini. The point is, they are good people. Really good. They know their stuffs and how to do their work as a student, a da’ie and a friend. More like family actually. Seriously lepas ni masing-masing dah busy. Mereka akan ke Mesir insyaAllah tahun depan, setelah menggenggam Mumtaz dalam tangan insyaAllah. Kami akan terpisah. Jauh nun di sana mereka bermusafir. Bila lagi nak ketemu? Setakat di facebook,ah. Apalah sangat.Tiada ‘zouq’. Masing-masing di bidang yang berlainan, mereka usuluddin,syariah,mu’amalah. Aku? Belum pasti apa tetapi yang penting berlainan. Bila lagi nak berjumpa?
Jawapannya.
Di medan da’wah kita bersatu.
Di medan tarbiyah kita bertemu.
Ya.Itu aku harap dan aku pasti itu akan tercapai. Kita akan bertemu.Sejauh mana terpisah, teruslah ‘thabat’ wahai sahabat (juga pesan kepada diriku) di jalan ini. Teruskan kehidupanmu dan teruskan misimu. Kita akan MEMBINA GENERASI HARAPAN bermula dengan diri sendiri dan sebarkan pada orang lain. InsyaAllah.Until we meet again!
Habis
11.08 a.m.
Akademi Ikatan Muslimin
Upgrade in process
Salam
In The Name of Allah Most Gracious Most Merciful
Praise to God,The One and Only.Alhamdulillah
Now my D3000 has some new friends.After long lone friendship with UV Filter and Velbon CX 388 Tripod,now another 2 members had joined the club.Welcome, Nissin Di622 and Targus 52mm Circular Polarizer
After 9 months of saving and dreaming to have my very own flashgun,i finally managed to buy one yesterday.Originally i planned to buy a Nikon SB-600 but since I have a financial problem,wait,didnt i always have a financial problem?whatever~then i have no choice but to accept the Di622. However,when i read the review about the product,its not that bad.Even the brand Nissin is widely popular and the later edition (Di866) is considered the best pro flashgun by Digital Camera Magazine.Well,not bad for a third party brand.Anyway,so far I’m happy with it except the fact that it takes up a lot,a HELL lot of battery.I have to change to a rechargable one i guess or otherwise my money will end up at the grocery store all the time sebab nak beli battery je memanjang.
Polarizer?I dont know how to use it yet.Maybe some other time.
Still,i have a long way to go in this field.Photography is not a simple matter.For a rookie like me,this is just a new step.A lot needs to be done to achieve my dream as a part-time professional photographer.Camera’s upgrade is still in process.Yet to complete.InsyaAllah
Habis
Khas buatmu teman ^^,
Salam
In The Name of Allah Most Gracious Most Merciful
Post ni khas untuk kawan2 yang dah pergi dan kan pergi ke luar negara untuk sambung belajar.Semoga kalian berjaya ye
Cumenye bg yg single lagi,tukar lah ‘anak dan isteri’ kepada family dan adik ke ape ke hehe
Nazrey Johani
Perantau
Perantau musafir perjuangan
Tabahkanlah hatimu
Berjuang di rantau orang
Sedih pilu hanya engaku yang tahu
Ingatlah anak dan isteri
Janganlah menghriris hatimu
Kerinduan desan nan permai
Janganlah melemahkan semangat juangmu
Di waktu ujian badai terus melanda
engkau tetap gigih berjuang
membenarkan sabda junjungan
Terus memburu menuntut janji
Pastilah Islam gemilang lagi
Tapi pejuang kembara perjuangan
Ujian bukan batu penghalang
Kerana itulah syarat dalam berjuang
Oh pejuang
Di manapun ada ketenangan
Di manapun ada kebahagiaan
Bila insan kenal pada Tuhan
Kasih sayhang dan pembelaan-Nya
bagi insan yang menyerahkan
Jiwa dan raga, anak dan isteri
Kepada Allah
The End
